I love Ceterus as a company, and I love my former coworkers. I worked for Ceterus in the Sales Operations role for a little over a year, where I gained a ton of valuable hard-skills and built-out my portfolio like crazy. I had a solid corporate role at a company that was booming, and I got to live on the East Coast. My life was so “cool”, that I told myself that I must be happy with the way things were. I had a life other people wanted, therefore I had to appreciate the life I had.

Unfortunately, I was not happy. I had a cool job, but it wasn’t what I wanted to be doing. I lived in a big city, but I didn’t like Charleston. I told myself I was happy, and I believed it too. It took me over a year in Charleston to realize I wanted to change things. My problem was that I didn’t know what I wanted out of life, and when you don’t know exactly what you want in life, it’s really easy to settle for what most people would consider a “good life”.

I was never passionate about my day-to-day job at Ceterus. I was working a very data-heavy role comprised of Excel spreadsheets and Salesforce administration, but the problem is that I’ve never been “left-brained”. I’m not an analytical person, I’m a creative person. But because I loved Ceterus, I kept telling myself that I loved my job.

In October of 2017, I decided to do some serious thinking about why my life felt “off”. I spent about a week using most of my free time just sitting around, planning a life I’d consider to be “perfect”. Once I had that figured out, it clicked to me that no aspect of my current life lined up with my goals of the life I considered ideal. In my perfect life, I saw myself working on a “right-brained” job doing creative work. I saw myself living by the mountains in Colorado, and spending lots of time outdoors. I saw myself traveling as much as I could.

The problem was; now that I knew exactly what life I wanted at this point in time, the one I had was no longer good enough for me. In November of 2017, I decided that there was absolutely no excuse as to why I wasn’t living my ideal life. With where I am in life, I could end up broke and unemployed, and I’d still have as many chances as it took to get it right. I have no mouths to feed but my own, no debt, and nothing to prove to anybody but myself. I had nothing to lose. I put in a 60-day notice with Ceterus, and let my landlord know that I wouldn’t be renewing my lease.

January 31st, 2018 was my last day at Ceterus and my last day in my apartment in Charleston. I threw away 90% of what I owned, stuffed the rest in my Nissan, and hit the road. Between February and May of 2018, I lived out of my car with no regular salary. I spent my time driving around the country, couch-surfing in every city I had friends in, and doing freelance work out of coffee shops to make enough to survive. I felt liberated. I knew I was doing the right thing.

In May of 2018, I started with my new employer, Platform Marketing, in a “right-brained” role that I genuinely love doing, and I moved into my new home in Colorado Springs, Colorado.